Well im back ok well sort of not really though lol but i do have a lot thats been going on!

first things first i gave birth to a beautiful child! id go into detail about my experience and what i had but this is the net and i still feel a bit leery about putting such personal ish up (especially when u have people who want to know whats up with u and how but dont wanna talk to u, then they feel they r still connected cuz they kno everything about you all cuz u spilled ur gutz online about every detail of ur life!!) lol so if ya wanna know more just ask...i will say this i had c section and i loved it especially after feeling a contraction i was a bit relieved to hear ok rose lets gets this kid out! and I was pretty blessed and excited how it all played out. my incision wasn't bad my staples weren't bad and now all is healing well. i can get up and still function but still have 2 take it easy and cant do dishes or drive far yet, sol im kinda stuck at home but all is ok. i get to feed change and snuggle this cute little miracle!

the best advice i got was sleep when the baby sleeps...we sleep in 3 hour increments and are up up 4 one then sleep again so life is good. everyone keeps trying to come thru but i sleep so much lol

i wouldn't trade this 4 anything though. I know my road of challenges, hard times, and uncertainty's has only just begun but im ready. im ready to take it all head on. I didn't make this child on my own but i did make the decision not to kill this child on my own and it was the best decision i could have made. i made a mistake by messing around but my child isn't a mistake. a def. warrior sent to make certain wrongs right. for that im grateful. at the same time i feel for those who were in my position and chose opposite of what i did, for what ever reason. I mean i do not think its our decision to take life once uve laid down with the "chances" of making one, and now im living that. I am living the walk after talking the talk on my beliefs and all i can say is i feel bad for those who made a decision based on their wants and miss out on this greatness i am experiencing.

ok well thats my rant atm but ill be back! my sister left her comp with me so i have one in between naps feedings an diapers so til then!