Life is great, I have come to realized that Devin was brought into my life to change things. I mean i knew he was gonna change what i did and how i did it, and everyone started telling me that (and still do) like i didn't realize this is a LIFE a huge thing. But i mean he had made me grow in the 9 months i have carried him and continues to make me grow, for the better. I mean not to say i was on the wrong track or anything of the such, but i have started to become a more realistic multitasker...i mean greater than i ever was! He is amazing and doesn't even know what he is doing to me. 
I got my staples out, i got those stupid sticker strips off my incision (those were a punk to growing hairs!), and i still have to say i would rather have a c-section than go through natural with out a second guess! I know it is major abdominal surgery and i know things could of had a major negative out come but they didn't! And really either way u give u birth im sure there are major consequences (especially in my family). Everyone keeps telling me im in the club sworn to secrectsey about what labor is really like...but psssshhhaaaaa i had a total of 6 contractions and let me tell you im glad i went in with the mindset i had. I knew it was gonna be the worse pain i might have ever felt, i knew that there was nothing i could really do to prepare myself for a pain i did not know...and honestly that Lamaze ish goes out the freakin window when a contraction hits. Your just trying to breath and not pass out and make it to the peak so u can feel the pain go down and then go away...like cramps but on a a level WAY passed that, extremely passed that.
But all is cool really, the worse part about my c section is not being able to do things like wash dishes, do laundry. I mean who complains about being able to do those huh? Well when ur single, with out a partner to help you its kinda hard to rely on others to do it for you. I think the bad part is these are thing i did and my roommate didn't, so i cant expect her to just automatically do dishes one day when its something she never does, and then my family and friends come over and help me out and wash my dishes but it feels sooo bad b/c they are washing her dishes too. And i know she could care less, but i feel bad...like people are cleaning my mess and the mess of another grown woman who could do it just wont. so for that i wish i was able to stand up for that long atm to wash dishes, or bend over repeatedly to unload the full dishwasher...But as far as my kid nothing has slowed me down from doing all the things he needs me to do...Love him, change him, feed him, snuggle him, wash him, play with him, and put him to sleep. LOL In his world all is great! LOL
so today i close this entry with all the things i am looking forward to...I cant wait to go back to work (i really like my job and the people i work for and work with, i miss them and not mention my full check and not just the percentage i get to "survive" from the state), i look forward to the kid sleeping more so i can sleep more through out the night before i make that return. I look forward to seeing my friends who are tru friends, I look forward to mu aunty wubby coming to ca this summer, I look forward to purchasing the AMAZING newborn pics that Valerie (valerieackermanphotography.com) took of Devin. I look forward to driving again, i look forward not being in the house sooo much, i look forward to seeing more and more of the little dudes personality come out, i look forward to seeing how long my hair is now when amber presses it out, i look forward to another glass of dr. pepper and maybe even a beer this evening, i look forward at looking into schools and degrees for me to get that next piece of paper to making my life more "secure" for the little dude and I, I look forward to the good and the bad situations (including the speechless ones in both situations) that are to come with raising the little dude, i look forward to the person i am growing up to be...realize i look forward to a lot BUT this is just the short list
I got my staples out, i got those stupid sticker strips off my incision (those were a punk to growing hairs!), and i still have to say i would rather have a c-section than go through natural with out a second guess! I know it is major abdominal surgery and i know things could of had a major negative out come but they didn't! And really either way u give u birth im sure there are major consequences (especially in my family). Everyone keeps telling me im in the club sworn to secrectsey about what labor is really like...but psssshhhaaaaa i had a total of 6 contractions and let me tell you im glad i went in with the mindset i had. I knew it was gonna be the worse pain i might have ever felt, i knew that there was nothing i could really do to prepare myself for a pain i did not know...and honestly that Lamaze ish goes out the freakin window when a contraction hits. Your just trying to breath and not pass out and make it to the peak so u can feel the pain go down and then go away...like cramps but on a a level WAY passed that, extremely passed that.But all is cool really, the worse part about my c section is not being able to do things like wash dishes, do laundry. I mean who complains about being able to do those huh? Well when ur single, with out a partner to help you its kinda hard to rely on others to do it for you. I think the bad part is these are thing i did and my roommate didn't, so i cant expect her to just automatically do dishes one day when its something she never does, and then my family and friends come over and help me out and wash my dishes but it feels sooo bad b/c they are washing her dishes too. And i know she could care less, but i feel bad...like people are cleaning my mess and the mess of another grown woman who could do it just wont. so for that i wish i was able to stand up for that long atm to wash dishes, or bend over repeatedly to unload the full dishwasher...But as far as my kid nothing has slowed me down from doing all the things he needs me to do...Love him, change him, feed him, snuggle him, wash him, play with him, and put him to sleep. LOL In his world all is great! LOL
so today i close this entry with all the things i am looking forward to...I cant wait to go back to work (i really like my job and the people i work for and work with, i miss them and not mention my full check and not just the percentage i get to "survive" from the state), i look forward to the kid sleeping more so i can sleep more through out the night before i make that return. I look forward to seeing my friends who are tru friends, I look forward to mu aunty wubby coming to ca this summer, I look forward to purchasing the AMAZING newborn pics that Valerie (valerieackermanphotography.com) took of Devin. I look forward to driving again, i look forward not being in the house sooo much, i look forward to seeing more and more of the little dudes personality come out, i look forward to seeing how long my hair is now when amber presses it out, i look forward to another glass of dr. pepper and maybe even a beer this evening, i look forward at looking into schools and degrees for me to get that next piece of paper to making my life more "secure" for the little dude and I, I look forward to the good and the bad situations (including the speechless ones in both situations) that are to come with raising the little dude, i look forward to the person i am growing up to be...realize i look forward to a lot BUT this is just the short list
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