I have like 5 of my close friends telling me they are in a funk. Like they have been going through the motions and putting on a happy face hoping that they will one day just fall into the happy character. I feel so bad for all of them.
I do not know what to say to them beyond the point of the norm.
Ya know the norm:
1. God will not bring you to it if he didn't get you through it
2. You will be stronger when u look back and look at the hill yo over came to get to greatness
3. You just need a hobbie a new something to do to shake things up to make u happy and make all the regular stuff ok to go through.
I wanna be a good friend so i am just listening, thats all a good friend can do at some points, its not about the response but the fact that you took the time to just be there and listen...right?
It especially stinks b/c i not only want my friends to be happy, but i want them to be enjoying life too. I do understand people are all different and have to "go trough some thangs to get to some thangs". Everything emotional, thought process and physical change i went through when i found out i was pregnant, was my some thangs i think.
So now i am in this place where no matter what goes on i am praising God weather good or bad, weather happy or sad b/c i know not only does he have a plan BUT everything is all planned out i just gotta keep going. I am promised some bad days those are already in the plan to make bigger things happen, so why allow myself to be down for any more than whats already for sure gonna happen. I just have to keep going, and finding the little thing that makes me smile everyday. Weather it be poking fun at something i did or said, watching my son laugh hysterically at a show i do not even think he understands but laughing at the "right moment" , baking cupcakes that i know no one is there to eat but doing doing it b/c it made me feel good to be happy baking and so much more. Thats what i have to do. I have to smile, i have to find at least one thing to enjoy my day, b/c when i start going that i forget count and my one thing a day turns into 3 or 5, and then my day of happy things then turns into a week of things etc.
So i am a place right now where i am going, i might not be moving at the speed i am suppose to but i am still going, i am smiling once or more a day and i am not just putting on that mask of being happy every day but i truly am happy everyday.
and i know my friends understand these things too, thats why we are friends, but i feel bad b/c the happiness i have in my heart i want them to have. I do nto want them to just be puttin on a mask but be filled and rejuvenated every day when they wake up.
But ya know what they are my friends, and i know that they will be here with me too. Its not money, its not things, but its moments filled with other moments that will make those memories and hey the year still has 6 months to go with things to only get better!
I am here friends! Write me...email me...call me...tweet me....facebook me...twitpic me...text me...WHATEVER but i am here with ears to listen and eyes to read! I have a smile for you on my face and in my heart, with arms that will not stop hugging, so when u wanna cry and when u can not be happy surround your self with happy people like me and we will get the job done together b/c your my friends!
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