U'll never understand the work, the pain, the exhaustion and the feeling of success and gratitude til ur doing it on ur own...
I knew single parents did theee most but didn't know that it was beyond what i comprehended as a person with no kids...
I love my days now, and would only trade them for more time with my little bug and nothing less, but they are beyond more challenging than anything i have ever completed. I have done a lot in my many years on this earth, gotten myself through school financially, supported my self financially and stayed tru to my spiritual and moral beliefs....ive done a lot work wise, hustled, planned programs that hundred and over the years thousands of people have attended, done red carpet and major events for "celebs", stayed focused and into my family events and issues (for the most part) But this alone mother hood thing is just another book, not another chapter in my book but a whole another book.
I am up in the middle of night with a feeding, which isnt bad at all cuz he is an easy kid who wants to sleep as much as me he is just hungry so he eats and goes right back to sleep, then i am up to go to work, then i am off work and picking him up, then i have to come home and cook dinner and clean my kitchen (cuz it really sucks when ur kitchen is dirty and then ur family and friends come to Cleon ur mess ALL the time and ur a grown arse women that should be able to clean up the mess she has made), tidy up the mess the bug and create in the front room, bath him, feed him, play with him (thats my favorite), put hm to sleep, watch tv b/c its nice to unwind a little before it starts all over, tidy the rest of the mess u made feeding and playing and bathing, prep mid morning bottles, and baby sitting bottles nd bag, pack the car for the sitter the next day, shower and brush ur teeth (i have forgotten this before and my brother not so gently reminded me of how gross it is), then u finally get to go to sleep only to start it all again in 3 hours! So 5 hours of sleep a night, and a full work day and cleaning to come home to.
But every moment is great even though when u look atthe technical aspects it is not to much (except for the cleaning up LOL) .
People say it all goes to fast but i am not experiencing that b/c i am enjoying every step its going by at a great pace for me
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